There's nothing like a little boredom to light a spark



I recently started a professional blog related to the work I do in my school. This was something I had wanted to do for some time, and it speaks to how I do what I do everyday. That particular website is practical in nature and its purpose is to share with my colleagues important and relevant information about inclusion in education. Although it took me some time to get it up and running, my blog keeps me planted firmly in my comfort zone. And I doubt that I will inspire many in my process.

 This thought has had me thinking recently, especially after having done some inspirational reading this summer. A blog is meant to be a reflective process, an opportunity to learn and interact with the community, a step outside of what feels comfortable. This is the blog I needed to write, and this is the one you're reading now, the one that will speak to why I do what I do.

 My hope is that people will actually read this, but I'm OK if that doesn't happen. This is a real beginning for me on the road to a "leader becoming" (a nod to my favourite professor Ken). It is a great solace to me that there is no finish line when it comes to leadership, that it is a constant improving of oneself, a learning process, a push to become better. If I start to feel that I've arrived, then this complacency will be my undoing.

 The end of this school year was somewhat anti-climactic for me. I am someone who is forever running around, doing too much at the same time and thriving in the chaos of family and school life. I broke my foot... not ideal for someone like me. However, I think there was a lesson to be learned and it was just a matter of figuring out what that lesson was: Take it easy? Go slow? Jump at the new challenge? I was thrown into a boredom I haven't faced since I was a kid, and I panicked at first. Even as I explained to my own kids why it's so important to experience boredom, I had my doubts. Yet, here I am to say that my physical limitations led me to appreciate the time I've had to reflect and digest. I am ready for new challenges, but I believe that I can better face those challenges now that I've had time to get to know myself a little better.

 This new blog is meant for dialogue, learning, reflecting and growing. I hope you'll join me on the journey out of my comfort zone.

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  1. ChayahJuly 31, 2017 at 6:06 PM

    I'll join you Barb, anyway I can - Love ya!

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  2. UnknownSeptember 13, 2017 at 3:44 AM

    Hey old friend. Just found this today through a Facebook post and am reminded of why we became fast friends so many years ago. We had so many good chats, some of which involved our bewilderment at how two 'academics' could end up with the jokers that we did! I look forward to reading your entries and continuing the conversations that time and distance have largely prevented. Much love and happy writing. Zan xo

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